My First Friend

Do you remember who your first friend was? Probably not, normally people make friends so early they don’t even remember them. So today I will share how I made my friend. I am Varun, age 16, I am not like other normal teenagers, see I am special, I can’t speak. Most of my life I have stayed in my house, my teacher has always came to my house due to which I had problem meeting people.

 

My family had already learned sign language to communicate with me but for other it is hard. Sometimes they forget that I can still hear and say something mean, most of the time I avoid them. Making friends was out of question, kinds my age can’t talk to me so they don’t even allow me to play with them. Then I started playing online games, where I met my first friend.

 

About a year ago when I was playing my online games as usual I found a person named ‘KillerBee32’, of course we meet in game but he was so good to me. Slowly we started to grow fonder of each other, we were spending hours playing online games. Even after a month we were meeting online every day to play, no one has ever spends this much time with me expect my family, I was happy.

 

After one and half months of playing online games together, he said that he wants to be friends with me outside games. That scared me, I don’t know why. I avoided that for some weeks but he started insisting so I had to give him my Facebook id. I guess I was scared that if he finds out that I can’t talk then he might not be friends with me, as he was anything close to friend I ever had.

 

He added me, very day I gave him my id, his real name was Frank. After that we were messaging outside of the game all the time. We shared every info about each other, but I never told him that I can’t speak. We started spending more time together then before. He became my first friend. Then he suggested that we should meet in person, but I never told him about my condition which might make him leave.

 

For a month I always made some reason whenever he said that we should meet, I didn’t wanted to lose my only friend. I could tell that he was irritated that I would turn him down every time he asked to meet. I had to tell him at some point about my condition, so one day I decided to tell him, no matter what his respond would be.

 

That day went by like every other day, we played for few hours and I had planned to tell him in night. It was quite late when I gathered myself and messaged him about my condition. He didn’t respond anything, now I had feeling that he might never talk with me as this has happened to me before whenever I told someone that I can’t talk they never responded back to me.

 

I couldn’t sleep all night, I checked for his reply every other minute he didn’t reply. He was online that meant he has seen it, I thought just like that I lost another so called friend. I didn’t get any sleep at all, I got off my bed at 6 and wrote Frank message that ‘it was good to know him and if he didn’t wanted to be friend anymore that was fine’ and then I deactivate my Facebook.

 

I was really sad, whenever I thought I made a friend this would happen. I hated myself for being like this. I can’t have a friend, I can’t have a normal life. Days passed I neither played game nor did I check my Facebook. My family got that something was not right, and I told my sister what happened. She said I need to get some air and we went for a walk.

 

It was after a week I got out of house, I was still thinking about all the people who left me because of my condition. I was sitting on a park about to cry, when I saw Frank. I tried to hide but it was already late, he saw me too. He was running towards me, I was confused he was supposed to act like he doesn’t know me. He came to me and hugged me, then said “it is really nice to finally meet you in person, I have looked everywhere for you.”

 

I was so confused what did he mean by he looked for me, why was he hugged. I asked my sister to translate for me, she came next to me and said to him “what are you doing here? Why did you were you looking for me? I can’t speak, you know that right?”

He turned to me and said in sign language “I am learning sign language so that I can talk to you properly” then he started talking “sorry that’s all I learned in a week. I got your messaged next day, by that time your id was deactivated and I wouldn’t get in touch with you. Why do you think of me, just because you can’t speak doesn’t mean I don’t want to be friends with you. I would be lucky to have friend with you.”

My eyes filled and I started crying, he hugged me and started crying himself. Later he explained that he knew that I lived in this neighborhood and he came every day in order to meet me and he didn’t even had my number to just call and talk to me. I was really happy to have my first friend.

 

It’s been a year and we are still friend. He has learned sign language and we have done things that I had never done before. He takes to the places where I wanted to go like club and bar. I really enjoy being around him. I have even made new friends who accepts me for who I am, I think Frank gave me confident that I needed. I have never been this happy in my life, now I am living my life.

 

THE END

 

P.S

Friend is someone who will stay by you even after knowing all your flaws, and help you overcome your fears. Today Tell your friends how much they mean to you.